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The Dark Reality – Just another bad day

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A lot has been spoken about depression, anxiety, the silent killers, telling everyone what to do, what not to do if someone close to you is a victim of it, but the real pain happens in the dark when alone. This is one bad day of a person suffering with this disease. Live it, feel it. Then you will know yourself, how to help the helpless. Here Mehak Mirza Prabhu, an avid storyteller from Mumbai, evinces the doom and gloom from a victim’s POV. The Dark Reality – Just another bad day, depression meaning in hindi, depression treatment test causes symptoms, depression icd 10 after delivery.
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The Dark Reality – Just another bad day

It’s 12 o’clock. It’s so dark. I am so sleepy. Eyelids are heavy as wet winter blankets. Phone is ringing. I forgot to keep it off hook and I have only myself to blame for that. I have only myself to blame for many more things; fast reducing bank balance, bad performance at work, son’s bad reports from school, the mess this house is in, the glass that broke, the tap that leaks, the AC that needs repairing, the lost driver’s license, the list is endless and goes in every possible direction of my life. I can either shut all of them down or feel it all. I have lost the perspective to choose the important ones.

It’s 12:30. It is so dark. I am so tired. My body aches. Must be because of my increased weight, which must be because of the ice creams and cakes, but my body aches a lot. The phone is ringing again. It’s painful to go and pick it up. Why can’t one sleep in peace?

I dream of black dogs chasing me, dream interpretation says it’s a bad sign. What can be worse than that ringing phone, chasing my dreams away. I prefer nightmares as I sleep than to waking up and talking to anyone. Why does he keep calling me. My harshest words don’t put him off, they only add up to my pile of guilt. Let it ring. It will stop soon. He will soon be put off soon!

It’s 2 o’clock. It’s darker now. The sight in front of me is scary. What happened in this room? Last I recollect it wasnt in this bad shape. That pretty vase on the little table, who kicked it while I was asleep? Books have jumped off their shelves, scattered all around, “Gone Girl”, is brutally gone. Why would anyone do this to them. I feel so lonely amidst this mess. I need to speak to him right now. I reach for the phone, which is silent as dead, broken as the vase. As I walk back to my bed, broken glass pricks my feet. Blood stains my carpet and makes me cry.

Who has directed all it’s anger on to these harmless things? and the same old question haunts me again, “Was it me?”

It’s 2:30. I creep into my blanket to go off to sleep. No more ringing of the phone. I finally can act dead, if cannot be. My blanket is safe, it’s all dark under it.

I am sleepy. I am tired. It’s dark within.
Outside the afternoon sun has given up trying to get me out of bed.

It’s 3 o’clock. On bad dark days it’s all the same, am or pm, what difference does it make.

Author Mehak Mirza Prabhu, is a 34 year old mother, storyteller, writer, entrepreneur, and lives in Mumbai. Passionate about creating and narrating stories in various languages. Consciously trying to bring people face to face with reality, not through statistics and reports, but through fiction laced reality based stories that all can relate to, and thus can feel others’ pain. Social reform enthusiast, blogger at Half Baked Beans, Storyteller at Storytel (Sweden), featured in The Logical Indian page and promotional head and writer on Scribbled Feel; is looking forward to more challenges that life can bring to her, to make her pen mightier.

Also read: How women are their own worst enemies

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Xiaomi Mi MIX 2: What’s Inside The Box

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Finally, Xiaomi has unvieled the Mi Mix 2 device which is an heir to last year’s bezel-less Mi Mix and features a features a 5.99-inch full-HD (1080×2160 pixels) 18:9 display with a pixel density of 403ppi and a DCI-P3 colour gamut with even thinner bezels. Unlike its antecedent, the Xiaomi Mi MIX 2 has been confirmed to launch in India soon, informed Manu Kumar Jain, MD of Xiaomi India on Twitter.

The design: Xiaomi Mi Mix 2 vs Mi Mix: As an improvement over the predecessor, Xiaomi has swapped a few things in Mi Mix 2. With four-sided curved ceramic body and an aluminum frame, Mi Mix2 looks more charming than Mi Mix with 12% narrower bezel.

However, the screen size is of Mi Mix 2 (5.99-inch) is comparatively smaller than the predecessor putting it back in the realm of ‘normal smartphone size’ as most of the Mi Mix owners were unhappy with its huge size.

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Thanks to rounder edges, Mi Mix2 is more comfortable to handle while Mi Mix had sharper edges and it flaunts 18K Gold-plated decorative camera rim.

While Mi Mix had a “piezoelectric speaker” instead of a normal earpiece speaker, but in the Mi Mix 2, this bizarre setup is replaced by a razor-thin earpiece in the top bezel.

Xiaomi Mi Mix 2 Specifications, Review, Price in India

Processor and RAM: As one would anticipate, the Xiaomi MIX 2 comes with flagship specifications to meet its premium design. It features high-end Qualcomm’s Snapdragon 835 chipset along with 6GB of RAM and up to 256GB of storage.

Camera: With Sony IMX386 sensor (with 1.25um pixels) and 4-axis optical stabilization setup it can shoot 4K or 1080p video at 30 fps, and 720p video at up to 120 fps for slow motion.

Making it a truly global smartphone that can work on almost all the networks in the world, Mix 2 supports 43 bands.

Mi MIX 2 Key features:

18:9 Screen, 5.99″ display
12% reduced chin size
Hidden speaker & proximity sensor
Snapdragon 835, 6GB RAM
Sony IMX386 sensor, 1.25μm large pixels 4-axis optical image stabilization
Four-sided curved ceramic body 7-series aluminium alloy frame
Global LTE support, 6 modes 43 bands

Review – What’s Bad in Mix 2: Despite having Quick Charge 3.0 support, powered with 3,400mAh battery Mix 2 fails to meet up the battery backup expectations. Another disappointment is the front-facing camera, which has been more seamlessly integrated into the bottom panel but will still require you to hold the phone upside-down for selfies.

Expected price of Mi Mix 2 in India: INR 32,500
Launch date: Manu Kumar Jain, MD of Xiaomi India, took to Twitter to confirm in a post that the Mi MIX 2 will be launched soon in India. He, however, didn’t share any specific timelines.

Also read: Samsung Galaxy Note 8 Review

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Who are Nigeria’s Boko Haram Islamist Terrorist group?

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What is Boko Haram: Militant Islamist organization Boko Haram refers itself as Islamic State West Africa Province (al-Wilāya al-Islāmiyya Gharb Afrīqiyyah) and has been a reason of massive devastation in Africa’s most populous nation Nigeria through a wave of bombardments, brutal assassinations, rapes, and abductions – is battling to topple the government and create an Islamic state.

Who is Boko Haram Leader: Boko Haram’s founder, Muhammad Yusuf, died in police custody in July 2009, and hundreds of others were murdered during that huge crackdown – which many blame for coercing the group even more violent.  The militant group Boko Haram was headed by Abubakar Shekau until August 2016, when he was replaced by Abu Musab al-Barnawi.

In 2014, a shocking video clip of Abubakar Muhammad Shekau was surfaced that showed him grinning as he admitted the abduction of more than 200 schoolgirls, promising to sell them.  The Islamic State (IS) militant group has announced that its West African affiliate Boko Haram has a new leader as Abu Mus’ab al-Barnawi. Little is known about Abu Mus’ab al-Barnawi, who appeared in a Boko Haram video in January 2015 as the group’s spokesman.

Agenda of Boko Haram: Boko Haram advocates a fanatical version of Islam that makes it “haram”, or forbidden, for Muslims to take part in any partisan or friendly activity affiliated with Western society. This entails voting in polls, wearing shirts and trousers or getting a secular pedagogy.

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Boko Haram sees the Nigerian country as being governed by non-believers, notwithstanding of whether the president is Muslim or not – and it has stretched its military campaign by targeting bordering states.

Since the prevailing insurgency began in 2009, Boko Haram has killed tens of thousands and uprooted 2.3 million people from their shelters and was ranked as the world’s deadliest terror organization by the Global Terrorism Index in 2015.

Boko Haram’s alliance with ISIS: Boko Haram had alleged links to al-Qaeda, but in March 2015, it declared its loyalty to the Islamic State of Iraq and the Levant (ISIL). Most of the analysts that have been keeping an eye on Nigerian crisis foretell that Boko Haram will soon be beaten, but the militant group’s allegiance with ISIS means that would presumably push the militants further into bordering countries.

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  • Founded in 2002, initially concentrated on opposing Western-style education.
  • Propelled military operations in 2009.
  • Thousands killed, mostly in north-eastern Nigeria, hundreds abducted, including at least 200 schoolgirls.
  • Joined Islamic State, calls itself IS’s “West African province.”
  • Seized large area in north-east, where it declared caliphate.
  • Regional force has retaken most territory last year.
  • Boko Haram was widely covered in the Western media in 2014 after the group kidnapped 219 schoolgirls.
  • At least 17,000 have been killed since Boko Haram launched an insurgency in 2009 to carve out an Islamic state in northeast Nigeria.
  • More than 2.6 million people have fled their homes since the start of the violence, but some of the internally displaced have returned home after troops began a fight-back last year and recaptured territory.

Why #PrayForNigeria was trending on Twitter

#PrayForNigeria was started recently because there was a suicide bombing on a mosque that killed 24 people, now you can see a lot of stuff about it on Interwebs, including torture of hostages, kidnapping of women and kids burned alive.

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But most of the stuff that is being shared by Twitterati dates back to February, when Boko Haram extremists raged a series of assaults against innocent people in refugee camps.

Way back in February, members of the radical Islamist group Boko Haram killed 86 people, including children in a series of attacks on a village, near a refugee camp in northern Nigeria. But we only cared about it, when a Twitter hashtag started trending worldwide.

Right, Black lives matter! Yes, we should pray for Nigeria, we should pray for the world, we should pray for the peace, but what we should not do is to spread baseless things, as spreading needless negativity makes our world more vulnerable to negative elements.

Also read: Terrorist Attacks and Islamophobia 

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